Tuesday, August 22, 2006

Surgery Day....for me

Wednesday. The day I've been dreading all week. I'm sitting at my computer desk and trying to stuff my face with as much food and drink as possible because in less than 2 hours, I can no longer eat or drink until tomorrow night. Let me back up a bit and go over why I'm having surgery in the first place. With all of the events going on in the lives of Carson and Eli, I haven't really written much about the exciting timeline of my own life. I know, I know.....try not to jump out of your chairs. This may be a TMI post so if you are at all queezy around womanly issues: stop reading now.

Bleeding is something I have become quite accustomed to in the past 5 months. My ob has diagnosed my with a condition called adenomyosis which has caused me to bleed about 23-25 days out of each month. Lovely, I know. This is not just annoying spotting every now and then. It is full-on, need a tampon, heating pad, mean to your husband, cramps all the time, becoming anemic, bleeding. Yuck. So, 8-23 is my day of relief (hopefully). Too bad I have to go through surgery and get cut open to fix things.

My ob thinks I need to have a D&C and an exploratory laparoscopy to try and stop the excessive bleeding and pain as well as get a look around to make sure there are no fibroids, tumors, cysts, or polyps that he can't see or feel. I will have a 1" incision at the bottom of my belly button and a 1.5" incision right above my c-section scar. Al and I decided that since I have to go under general anesthesia and the external incisions are the same, that I will also have a tubal ligation at the same time. I have to be at the hospital at 12 for pre-op and registration and my operation starts at 1:30. Hopefully things will go smoothly and I'll be home in time for a clear liquid dinner of soup and jello. Yum. Especially after over 20 hours of not eating and drinking.

Many of you know that our ob and our peri have both recommended for us to never get pregnant again. After losing our first baby at 13 weeks, having Carson at 30 weeks, and Eli at 25 weeks, they do not believe I will ever carry a child successfully to term. We are not willing to endanger another baby's future by getting pregnant again. Our history with pPROM and preemies coming earlier and earlier is not worth having another biological child. It is a bit sobering having such a permanent decision basically made for you by your own body, but I have come to terms with closing my reproductive years at a young age. Seeing your babies go through surgeries and FTT and therapy and lifelong scars will help along these decisions. If Al and I feel that our family is not complete later down the road, we are incredibly open to adoption and would pursure that option in a heartbeat. As an adoptee myself, adoption just seems like a natural process and one day our family may take that step. For now it will be our two amazing boys, our spoiled dog Macy, Al, and me laying on the couch being pampered (hopefully) by them all after my surgery. Chocolate treats, good books, and a nice blanket will all be accepted at my house tomorrow evening :)

7 comments:

Connie said...

Kellie, We wanted to say good luck and you are in my thoughts and prayers.. So What if you and al don't have anymore kids you have 2 amazing boys that are bless to have you as there mommy..Look @ me Kellie I'm 33 and I may never have kids and it hurts me so bad to know that..Keep your head up and god works in his own little ways.. We Love You And Miss You Guys.. Connie,Chad And Michael.

Jessica said...

Good luck Kellie. I hope the surgery takes care of the problem. It can't be fun to bleed all the time, especially on top of everything else going on. (((hugs)))

Lisa said...

Kellie, hope everything has gone well and your men are prepared with the chocolates! Take care of yourself and update when you can. I'll be thinking about you!

Maggie said...

Good luck! I can't imagine spending the majority of my month like you have!!! Here's hoping that you get lots of relief not to mention LOTS of pampering!

JP said...

Hope everything went well today and you're feeling better soon!

Shawna said...

Oh Kellie do I know what you're going through! For the last year this month, I have had a total of maybe 5 weeks all together and never all at once with either just light spotting or no bleeding. It's been horrible and unfortunately, my doctor's want to try hormones first as I've been diagnosed with perimenopause already according to hormone counts in my blood. Hopefully I'll be having my uterus cauterized soon though (or partial hysterectomy) so I never have to worry about it again, I'll find out in September or October hopefully! I also completely understand about the tubal ligation. Joe and I were pretty sure Joey would be our last when I got pregnant but once the doctor told me that my kidneys would not hold out for another pregnancy, it devestated me to know it was no longer my choice. It's that my body just isn't strong enough anymore thanks to my kidney disorder. I came to terms with it though and know that God gave me what he found suitable for me and my family and nothing more, nothing less. It's out of my hands and I'm thankful for the beautiful babies I do have and am blessed everyday, as you are. I'm glad you have come to terms with it as well and are so open to adoption. (as if you wouldn't be hehe) I really hope your surgery goes smooth and your recovery is a speedy one. Tons of good luck vibes and well recovery wishes. Love and miss ya sweetie! I'll call to check on you in the day or so. (((HUGS)))

Amanda said...

I have been thinking of you and hope everything went well! Hope your boys are pampering you and you are getting plenty of chocolate :-)